oh well .
23 NOV 2005 .
i foun out everythiin .
i wanted hiim out of ma liife .
go to hell with that girl .
i wanted hiim no more .
though my heart yearns for hiim stiil .
told hiim to go away .
we aint anythin anymore .
im sory mama .
i cant hold on .
i wanted to die .
i wanted to kill him .
and HER .
aint want troubles again .
he called .
yes he did .
he wanted to know what i already knew .
told him to go to hell .
he wont .
he want me .
as much as i want hiim .
he left her .
whether i believe it or not .
he really did .
confused .
i met him .
the day after .
followed hiim to MCYS .
dinch talk much all along the way .
was quiet .
i looked at him . he looked back .
the feelin was there .
still strong as ever .
turned away still .
couldnt held back ma tears .
flowed the way i din want it too .
he saw .
yeahh he did .
a hug was given .
yeah .
i embraced him too .
like i've never did before .
he loves me .
yeah i love hiim too .
it just hurt so much .
told me he cant live .
when i aint there .
we are still one .
though i've made up my mind never to be with hiim again .
i love him still .
i miss him still .
and.
i want him still .
hes still my precious baby ucuk .
hun.
i may be diff towards u for now .
im still hurt .
my love for u .
still as strong .
but .
im not myself now .
hope u understand .
the tears u cried for me .
touched me .
but .
still .
do understand .
hope u realise ya mistake .
i aint gona tolerate it anymore .
i love ya so much .
thanks to:
dani.nadya.suzie.fidah.kak dewi.
for your advices and encouragement .
appreciate it lots .
what a long update .
enjoy readin .
=) .
